Letter to the almost forgotten

This letter goes out to all the people I’ve ever had a crush on –

Dear Anonymous,
         I’ve tried drawing in air a thousand times but it never seems to work. Since I met you, I’ve been a basket case of emotions – I’ve missed my way, grinned like an idiot, comported myself like a lady. Gosh! It’s hard to keep up you know. Don’t you even want to put me out of my misery, Why are you stalling? Do my eyes not say all, are my lips not speaking the words that will catch your heart. Can’t you hear my heart pleading just for you to listen, and tell me what I need to hear.
I don’t know the genesis – was it your hair or your smell, or the way you smiled or your kindness. I don’t have an answer for my heart betraying me this way.
I can’t say you were my first choice but my heart sought you out like a candle hidden under a bushel.
I can’t read your thoughts, your face is blank but then you smile – do you smile at me? Is it to reassure me or am I making a fool of myself?
Sigh! I want to throw my heart out and make my mind tabular rasa and rid myself of your thought, but your silence kills me and makes me wonder – I sleep and my dreams are plagued by you.
I get tired and frustrated by Myself because Me would never do that – Me doesn’t even care if you are there or not, didn’t even blink when you told that joke; Me didn’t think twice to let you be but Myself betrayed Me, made Me seek you.
I need closure from myself, but I wish your heart will tell me the things I need to hear, maybe I will dream of the answer that your lips won’t say. I only wish things worked out different.

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