My writing has been on rampage these days, today I might be touching on a sensitive subject, it doesn’t make me less than godly; just human
I really want to give in most times
It is so hard to stay chaste when all I see around are men, it’s raining men out there
Wonderful looking sensual men, I cannot help it that my mind drifts and it doesn’t make me less Christian just more human. I start to study physique, eyes, cheekbones how chiseled it is, or prominently defined. Legs that run for days and perfectly manicured feet – a list of my favorite things in a man that awaken the sleeping giant
My passages for these moments of temptations are II Cor 10.3-5 and that verse in Matthew 6, that reads “Lead us not into temptation but deliver us from all evil”
I guess writing about it keeps me sane. I mean what do you say about one that notices every bulge in a guy. It is hard and extremely inhuman not to act out your thoughts during those moments but then I realize the bed must be un-defiled.
I miss strong arms, I want them and I covert every lady that has them (Lord, help me). Plus, twitter makes it so hard with so many tasty people on the site and you are expected to be a child of God and think godly thoughts…
According to Phil 4.8 – your thoughts have to be true, just, lovely, virtuous, noble, pure, of good report and praiseworthy but how can you achieve that without physical intimacy in the confines of marriage especially when you popped the cherry too quickly.
Lord, I want to be a Christian in my heart.